Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

"Just A Dream"
Carrie Underwood lyrics ASCAP

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh,
Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream

April 4, 2008

I miss you.

March 31, 2008

Thx for the wonderful sail today!!!

March 30, 2008

Happy Spring in Heaven, Angel ;)

March 29, 2008

How true it is that people move on, but let us not forget!

March 26, 2008

Last evening on the nightly news, they were interviewing military widows. One of them when being interviewed was asked if it ever gets any easier....she said "I could live to be 95 and it's never going to get much easier." So very true. Living life and healing doesn't mean forgetting, and I will never forget you my dear husband. I love you.

March 25, 2008

Bryan is never forgotten.....trust me!
His absence felt every day in every way.

March 25, 2008

Happy Easter!

March 24, 2008

As time passes people seem to forget and reflections are not as often, people don't realize that the pain and emptiness is still there for you Mrs. Verkler and Bryans
family. I have read every page and its evident that the healing process is there and thats very good but no one should go a day without leaving a reflection for Bryan if its only to say "we miss you" or "thank you". He gave his and your life to protect people he did not know. Again its good that the healing process has progressed but lets not forget there is still a wife without a husband and a mom and dad without a son. God bless the entire Verkler family and know there are still some of us out here who think of you all the time.

March 22, 2008

A Celtic Blessing

May the light of your soul guide you.
May the light of your soul bless the work that you do
with the secret love and warmth of your heart.
May you see in what you do the beauty of your own soul.
May the sacredness of your work bring healing, light
and renewal to those who work with you
and to those who see and receive your work.
May your work never weary you.
May it release within you wellsprings of
refreshment, inspiration and excitement.
May you be present in what you do.
May you never become lost in bland absences.
May the day never burden.
May dawn find you awake and alert,
approaching your new day with dreams, possibilities and promises.
May evening find you gracious and fulfilled.
May you go into the night blessed, sheltered and protected.
May your soul calm, console and renew you.

March 17, 2008

Being robbed of everything will never change my feelings for you. I would go back and do it all again in order to share the amount of time of total love and soulmanship that we shared. I will always love you...till the end of the Earth!

March 15, 2008

There are days like these that I only hoped that we would have had our lives live out like we wanted...the years married, the children born, the recitals, the plays, the gymnastic practices, the gymnastic meets, the hockey practices etc....
WHY?????
We were such an awesome match! It seems like such cruel and unusual punishment that we were not allowed to have our family. I miss you!!

March 15, 2008

four years and 3 months later....
Has it really been that long since I felt your kiss, touched your hand or felt your lips upon mine? Seriously...is that possible? I miss you and life will never be the same without you here. I love you so very much.

March 15, 2008

Today I know that you are smiling down upon me. I love you and miss you.

March 8, 2008

It's been a rough week. I am thankful it is over.

February 22, 2008

I miss your arms around me and the sound of your voice telling me that everything will be o.k. I miss you as my husband and also my very best friend in the whole world. NO ONE knew me better than you. Your presence in my life is still felt on a day to day basis.

February 14, 2008

Juli, your healing is so evident! When you go back and read
all the reflections up till now you are truly healing and able to move forward with your beautiful memories. I am so
happy you are at this point of healing and being able to let go of some of the bad. god bless!

February 10, 2008

Thank you for the dream that I had last night. It was absolutely amazing to watch the beautiful sunset together. I love you.

February 2, 2008

Somedays I just miss the thought of you and I talking. Today is one of those days. You were always my biggest cheerleader, telling me the actual perspective of things and cheering me up when needed. I miss you!

January 30, 2008

So far, things have been very different this year. I think that I am really liking my new endeavor thus far. I am thankful for the opportunity to try something new, but not really that different from the things I used to do when I was at SB Mem. I love you.

January 12, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN =)

January 6, 2008

Happy Birthday My Love. Today you would have been 31. So hard to believe that you were robbed of so much by being killed at age 27. My Birthday Wishes to you on the Other Side. I know you are celebrating with all of your friends and family that passed before you and that you will have a great time!

January 6, 2008

One more really hard day to get through until next year for your wife and family. While everyday is hard, the ones that are hardest are the ones that happen from December 13th - January 6th. I hope your birthday is wonderful up there =) Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and Happy Birthday.

January 1, 2008

I'm so glad that a new year is right around the corner. With a New Year, it always seems to bring such hopes and expectations. I am hoping that the new things that I am doing are going to be some wonderful things that are very fulfilling. I miss you and I will love you forever.

December 28, 2007

HOW SAD IT IS THAT BRYAN'S LIFE ENDED SO TRAGICALLY, LET ALONE RIGHT AROUND CHRISTMAS TIME. JULI, I'M SURE LOSING THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE HAS BEEN TRAUMATIC AND LOOK HOW FAR YOU HAVE COME! READING BACK, I CAN SEE WHERE IT WAS DIFFICULT TO BREATHE LET ALONE PUT ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER TO MOVE ON. NOW YOU HAVE MOVED ON TO ANOTHER STATE, ANOTHER JOB, ANOTHER HOUSE, ANOTHER PET . . . BUNCHES OF ANOTHERS. I HOPE AND PRAY THAT EVENTUALLY YOU WILL TURN THE "HOLIDAY HUMBUG" INTO A POSITIVE EXPERIENCE - DON'T LET THE A**HOLE THAT TOOK BRYAN WIN. DON'T LET HIM TAKE THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES YOU HAVE AND KEEP THEM CLOSE TO YOUR HEART. BRYAN WOULD WANT YOU TO. TURN IT ALL AROUND AND DO SOME GOOD FOR SOMEONE ELSE THAT IS STRUGGLING DUE TO LOSS OF A LOVED ONE, HOME, HEALTH, JOB, ETC. PERHAPS YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE TO TO HELP PEOPLE - THROUGH YOUR PROFESSION AND LIFE EXPERIENCES. I KNOW YOU HAVE HELPED ME.

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR

KATHY
CONCERNED MISHAWAKA RESIDENT

December 21, 2007