Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

This Sunday is Mother's Day Kyle :) I am grateful everyday that you saw in me the mother I could be. You were an amazing leader and just as stated in a reflection below, we live our lives to glorify God-and that is exactly what you did! You know how much I appreciated you because I told you everyday. I remember how we were unique together, I cuddled you and loved on you despite any looks or comments we got. Nobody could change the way I felt for you because that is how I show my love. You were so smart and you saw that in me. We were so ambitious together. We knew we were our own team. You trusted me with all your heart as I did you. You loved me for who I naturally was and every day I felt your acceptance, forgiveness, and protection-I couldn't have asked for anything more! Remember, I was about to start a new pack of birth control pills-it was the car ride home from a river trip-April '00. We had been together for 3 1/2 years, married for 1/2. You said lets not start that pack. I was so scared-I didn't like messy, screaming kids and I had a successful career! You mean we are actually going to try to raise a family! Your strength as the good man you were, I could be comforted through anything. Then that's how we roll, balls out! Survivors-Victors, not victims! I see Ethan, Andrew, and Owen, so cute, active, smart and playful...any father would feel on top of the world to have their little arms wrapped around his neck! I hurt and am so sorry you can't be here for them to hug, play, and follow :( I am trying Kyle! WE TRIED! Thank you Lord for being my light. Thank you Lord God for making me nurturing; attractive in spirit, body, and personality; kind; honoring; intelligent; and positive! Despite our ups and downs common in all healthy relationships, we deserved eachother. We were people of our word and stuck to the choices we made. “What therefore God has joined together, let not man separate” (Mark 10:9). In other words, since God is the one who decisively makes every marriage, only God has the right to break a marriage, and he does it by DEATH. I came across our wedding vows for the first time since 11am on August 20th of 1999! and looking back, even though they were tucked away, we just naturally lived them! Our pastor talked about marriage=garden: what you get depends on what you plant...friendship, companionship, joy, trust, forgiveness, honesty, and love! LAURIE: Do you Laurie, choose Kyle, from this day on as your beloved, to be your husband? To live with him and to laugh with him? To stand by his side and to sleep in his arms? Is it your desire to be joy to his heart and food to his soul? To bring out the best in him always; and for you to be the most you can be? If so, you may say, "I do". KYLE: Do you Kyle, choose Laurie, from this day on as your beloved, to be your wife? For you to commit yourself to laugh with her in the good times; to struggle with her through the bad? To be solace for her when she is down hearted and to to wipe her tears with your hands? To comfort her with your body? To mirror her with your soul? To share with her all your riches and honors? To play with her as much as you can until you grow old and still loving each other sweetly and gladly, until your lives come to the end? If so, you may say, "I do". LAURIE: Kyle, I promise to treasure the wonderful, unique person that you are. When we are together, nothing seems impossible. I want to work with you to continue to build our life together. Let us grow our lives forever intertwined, our love bringing us closer together, let us create a home that expresses our individuality and our love for each other. May it be a home filled with peace, with happiness and with love. Kyle, I promise to share with you in times of joy as in times of trouble. To talk and to listen; to honor to respect and to appreciate you; to provide for and support you in trust and in love. KYLE: Laurie, I love you with my entire being and I want you to be my wife. Today I give myslef to you without reservation and ask that you share your life with me for all time and eternity, during health and illness, good times and bad and in joy and sorrow. I promise to you, Laurie, to love you as no other can, to be your best friend and to give you may complete loyalty, fidelity, and trust. Do you accept me as your husband?

THANK YOU for making our pregnancies wonderful and making me a wonderful mother. Happy Mother's Day. You know how love and acceptance is the only gift I need, and even more so after all I've learned after you left. (Sorry, just was never that materialistic.)

Laurie Ballard

May 8, 2008

I am often reflecting on my childhood and love sharing with those that are close to me about the countless stories and great memories I had with you. Kyle, I am always thinking of you. Our friendship molded me into the person I am today.

Just wanted to say a quick thanks.

Brad

Bradley Smith

April 11, 2008

I miss you so much Kyle. I know that you are okay and that my Mom and Papa are in heaven with you. You guys are probably playing crazy practical jokes on everyone up there. I miss you so much, I love you.

Lori Fontyn
Cousin

February 25, 2008

I miss you my friend, always! And can't wait to meet up with you again.

Darcy
Friend

February 25, 2008

My thoughts are with your loved ones on this day. Continue to keep watch over them and those still out on patrol. You are a true hero and will never been forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

February 24, 2008

Officer Ballard,
Thank-you for your service.
May your family be comforted and blessed today and always.

Holley Orr
Wife of Detective Kevin Orr EOW 11-22-06

February 24, 2008

The 2nd anniversary of your EOW. Looking forward to
meeting you in that special place. I know your families
and friends miss you like crazy!
Our purpose in life is to bring God glory. You succeeded! I'm sure your boys will follow in your
footsteps.
Lynn Kole
Bellingham, WA

February 24, 2008

YOU ARE REMEMBERED TODAY AND THANK YOU SIR FOR YOUR SERVICE AND DEDICATION, YOU ARE A HERO JUST BY THE PROFESSION YOU CHOSE.

VANDENBERGHE
MANCHESTER, NH

February 19, 2008

May you rest in peace and may our loved ones be ever blessed by Him

February 16, 2008

I think of you every day. i still struggle why you were taken. but I know we will be together in heaven. Be well.

Russ Ballard
Father

January 11, 2008

I love you Kyle. Christmas is sad, the last time I saw you was at Christmas. I still think about you every day and what a wonderful man you were.

Rochelle

December 26, 2007

"The Badge"

He starts his shift each day
To respond to calls unknown.
He drives a marked patrol car.
A police officer he is known.

He's paid by the citizens' taxes
To make it safe on the streets.
But he usually has a second job
'Cause a waitress has his salary beat.

Now he doesn't know a holiday
'Cause he works all year round.
And when Thanksgiving and Christmas finally arrive
At his home he cannot be found.

He's cursed and assaulted often,
The one whos blood runs blue.
He seldom ever gets a thanks,
To some he's just a fool.

His friends are always other cops
'Cause people just don't understand
That underneath his badge and gun,
He's just another man.

He knows there might not be a tomorrow
In this world of drugs and crime.
And he gets so mad at the court system
'Cause the crooks don't get any time.

And each day when he leaves for work,
He prays to God above.
Please bring me home after my shift
So I can see the ones I love.

But tonight he stops a speeding car,
He's alone down this ole' highway.
It's just a little traffic infraction.
He does it everyday.

Well, he walks up to the driver's window,
And his badge is shining bright.
He asked the guy for a driver's license,
When a shot rang through the night.

Yes, the bullet hit its mark,
Striking the officer in the chest.
But the Department's budget didn't buy
Each officer a bullet-proof vest.

So he lay on the ground bleeding.
His blood wasn't blue - His blood was red.
And briefly he thought of his loved ones
'Cause in a moment the officer was dead.

In the news they told the story
Of how this officer had died.
And some who listened cared less,
But those who loved him cried.

Well, they buried him in uniform
With his badge pinned on his chest.
He even had his revolver,
He died doing his best.

Written By:
David L. Bell
Sergeant
Richland County Sheriff's Department
Columbia, South Carolina
Used with Special Permission of the Author
Copyright © 1999 - All Rights Reserved
and may not be duplicated without permission

Investigator David L Bell
Richland County Sheriff's Dept., Columbia, SC

December 5, 2007

I ran across your name on this site of many heroes and thought I would stop at your page and leave a reflection. 18 months have passed since you were called away and I know for some it has felt like a lifetime since the the last time they able to see your wonderful smile, hear your voice or feel your warm touch. They say in time that things get better, but people don't realize that there is never enough time left on this earth for things to get better. Keep Kyle's memory alive by telling stories about him to anyone that will listen as this is a way of keeping his memory alive. He is a true hero and heroes never die. Kyle, keep looking down on your loved ones and protect them from harm and also those still out on patrol. You have not been forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

August 28, 2007

Kyle,
I think about you all the time, I really miss you so very much. Wouter and I were just talking about how much fun we all had every time we got together. You grew up into such a great man. I love you.

Lori Fontyn
Cousin

August 14, 2007

Oh the memories we had!!!

I will never forget the times you threw rocks at me telling me to go home and yet we were both laughing! I remember looking at you from the school bus window at Clifton watching the water drip from your hair (that is how you wore in until it dried of course). I also remember the fun we had in our pool...oh and playing in your play house in the backyard. Ok, one more thing, the time you put your cat "Romle" in the freezer! I guess with all this said, you are truly remembered and missed. You are thought of often and I pray for your family many times. God Bless you Laurie, even though we have not met..you are loved. I have saved the christmas cards you have sent me and cant beleive how much the boys look like Kyle. He is with you each minute. Trust in the Lord and remember we can do all things through Christ who strenghtens us!!

Kristy
old Neighbor and friend

July 31, 2007

Hi Kyle. I thought of you on your birthday and how we used to make fun that your birthday was actually not really a celebration because it was the fourth of july. But now all I think about is you on that day...so really, you prevailed and are one up on me right now.

We had a great time with Laurie and the boys at the river. Still not the same without you...though, the big boys did have a mud fight in your honor. And the little boys fished til their hearts content. You are definitley not forgotten.

Happy Birthday K...we miss you.

Darcy

July 6, 2007

Kyle,

Happy 4th of July and Happy Birthday. I was remembering your 30th Birthday - Laurie arranged a Limo ride and we drove all over the place and we were able to hang out at the RoseBowl where we had cake. I think I gave you a new hat. It was a new hat that looked old :-) caused your old hat that looked very old- smelled bad.

I miss you and think about you always.

It was great to see Laurie and the boys a couple days ago. They stopped by to see Karolina- she is only 4 weeks old and lots of fun! I gave each of the boys a Chocolate See's-gar and explained to them the tradition of giving cigars at the birth of a baby and how I was giving one to all the guys. I even brought one to you at the Rosebowl. The boys are a lot of fun. Katie and I look forward to raising our girl as well as you and Laurie have raised your boys.

Love you and miss you always.

Jeff F
Friend

July 5, 2007

Happy Father's Day Kyle! I pray that the boys will one day, one day far away after they have acheived goals and followed dreams and can be providers :) --be as good of Father's as you were. In your much too brief time of being a Daddy, you gave them support, encouragement, TIME, and direction, and mostly you gave all of us LOVE. "In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps" -Proverbs 16:9

Laurie Ballard

June 17, 2007

Kyle was with my team for over a year during the Pomona 12th Street wiretap investigation. During that time period, he was the master of developing schedule matrices for surveillance teams and wire room staff.

My team is starting another wiretap investigation next week and one of the new guys came up to me and asked me how to create a schedule matrix.

I smiled and remembered I kept a copy of Kyle's schedule matrix. I burned a copy of that schedule with instructions Kyle made. Hey Kyle, thanks for everything and your great help. I'll pass your exemplar off to this new guy so his job will be easier:)

Henry Kim-Special Agent Supervisor
BNE - Los Angeles

June 13, 2007

It is has been over a year since Kyle died and I had to receive the incredibly soul crushing news. With wisdom and blessing, your mind can process circumstances positively. Death of the body is final, it is God's hand welcoming a soul into eternity and saying you did good in this life on Earth I gave to you, you prepared yourself. Those that you leave will continue to honor and remember the good you contributed. You helped them learn how to keep their livelihoods and love alive. It feels good to heal, and experience blooming flowers and beauty flourish from soil that was burnt! Life sometimes (and even repeatedly) brings tragedy your way, from no fault of your own and for reasons you can't understand, but you are part of a community of people that care. To family, friends, co-workers, the community, and people who's lives Kyle touched, you were here to support me&us in every way from the smallest to the largest gestures. I am INCREDIBLY appreciative to everyone that sent me prayers, donations, letters, cards, flowers, made food, called, visited, and played with the boys during my greatest time of weakness and need! Please know this and know I thank you from deep in my humbled heart and am happy that you continue to be here :)

Laurie Ballard

May 7, 2007

A member of the Northern California Police Unity Tour team will also be riding in your honor during May 2007 National Police Week in DC. Please help keep us safe as we honor you our brother. If contact is not made with your family or friends a bracelet of the event will be left by your name for them to claim. Thank you for your service and peace to all who were touched by you.

R.Bucher Evidence Tech
Oakland PD CA

April 10, 2007

Dear Laurie ~

Thank you for the reflection on my husband's page, I appreciate your kind thoughts.

You hang in there. You made it through the first year, which really is the hardest, and are truly a survivor.

Police Week is just amazing, I can't even put it into words......the emotion of it is just overwhelming. I remember the moment Jesse's name was read at the Vigil. I remember seeing his name on the Wall for the first time. I remember meeting the President and telling him that my husband died, and him hugging me and saying that everything was going to be alright....I remember it all like it was yesterday. It is just an amazing experience, Laurie. Just amazing.

My thoughts and prayers are with you. You have made it through the first year, I have made it through the second, but our journeys have barely just begun......we have so much more to do.

We are sisters in suffering, our hearts are forever joined and we can lean on each other whenever we need to. God bless you and your family.

Warmly ~
Carin Sollman
wife of Officer Jesse E. Sollman, EOW 3/25/05

April 2, 2007

I will be riding the Unity Tour in your memory. During this ride when the days grow long and the hills become steep and the body starts feeling the burn from the long time in the saddle, I will think of who I'm riding for and the family you left behind. Your memory will give me the strength to go on.
We will meet someday.

Sgt. Robert Haught
Nashville Metro Police Dept

March 24, 2007

Its been a year since you left us. They had a run in your honor on Saturday. I was working an never got the chance to make it out there. However, it was nice to hear so many people made it out there in your honor. I miss you and cant believe you are gone. It seems like just yesterday we were talking at Ortiz' house for the big game. I miss seeing your wonderful smile. You are truly missed.

PPD family member

February 26, 2007

Well Kilo, it has been a year. We honored you two days ago on the one year anniversary of the day you went 10-7. We had a great turn out at the Rose Bowl to go on a motivational run in your honor. It was awesome to see the turn out, but at the same time your absence is still painful. I still miss you brother, but rest assured, you are not and will not be forgotten.

Roger Roldan
Pasadena P.D.

February 26, 2007